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[28 Jan 2009|07:31am] |
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So it's an early Wednesday, as any Wednesday starts I guess. Not sleeping as much as I should be but it feels okay. I like being up waiting for the sun to rise. The birds love the routine, everyone gets started. The window is still cold to the touch, but the sun is trying to break through. My hands are hot from my mug. It's Tea today. Strawberry. The music starts up on my machine, my voice feels a little scratchy and dry. I sing along anyway. Open the window to let the cold air blow in. It smells so crisp and free. That's how my mornings make me feel, free. I really could do anything today. Sounds from the outside world whisper through the mesh. It feels like the wind is calling me out to play. A dog barks and breaks the silence like ice cracking. The cars rush by, people chatting, leaving for work. The noise of lives starting to hum. The day has begun. What shall we be today?
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[23 Jan 2009|07:12am] |
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Wow, it's been a while since I've updated here. Things are going really well for me. I love where I live and the new friends I've made here. It's nice having a close friend living in the building, don't have to leave the building in bad weather to socialize or have a mini party. ( =
Having a place to call home that you love is a feeling I can't explain. To know I can always go home to my place of safety and happiness, comfort and joy, brings a sense of relief and security. A freedom from the world, where I can do as I please, dance at all hours and be myself completely.
Since I've been living here the relationship between my mother and I has improved drastically. It's so strange reading over my old posts of the things she used to do, it seems from another world. Granted, we still argue occasionally but nothing out of the ordinary. She is having more medical issues though with her lungs which we are addressing now and in the coming months. It may be bad news but I've grieved over it and am ready to help her fight whatever comes her way.
My health has thankfully been well, and the recent regular workouts has lifted all my winter blahs. I've learned that for me to be sane and happy physical activity has to be a part of my daily routine. When I'm active I'm happy and hopeful and ready to take on the world. As soon as I slip on my workouts I feel it emotionally first. I start to get depressed and want to binge on unhealthy foods that forces the spiral downward. I've known this about myself generally but having final confirmation that exercise is a cure all to my anxiety and stress is a big wake up. I'm finally feeling ready to be social again. I have been seeing some friends occasionally, not as much as I'd like.
My animals are all doing well, the family consists of Riley the dog, Gizmo the bunny, Kiwi the parrotlet, Mika the budgie, peanut the hamster and cosmo the fishie. Everyone is cozy and happy.
School is in my future this year, I'm really looking forward to going to UofT. It's about time I went back to school. I've had setbacks with finances and family issues, but those never go away. So now it's time to focus on that. I'm still not sure which career path I will choose but I'm sure it will open doors either way. I'll get new ideas and meet new people, and hopefully learn a whole lot. ( =
I've spent some time looking over my livejournal and had a lot of laughs through it. We all change so much more than we realize. Don't get me wrong I still love to party and have fun, but there is so much more to life now that I was scarcely aware of. The friends that I've kept through it all mean the world to me. Thanks for stickin around ( =
What an adventure my twenties were. Gonna be turning 30 this year and I'm looking forward to it. The experience and struggles have taught me so much more than I could have imagined.
All in all life has been good to me life is good, and the future is just around the corner (=
love Dar
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[04 Aug 2008|01:43pm] |
A lot has been going on. I've been applying to volunteer with the Toronto Wildlife Center, and my interview went really well. They offered me to apply for a position that they now have open. I'm a bit weary about it though. It seems like a great place to work. But it's so far. I'd be gone from home for 11 hours at a time. What about Riley. Who would walk him in the middle of the day. I know he could hold it but I'd feel terrible leaving him all day long alone. I also haven't been working in a while, will I have the energy?
I'm thinking I'll just start with the volunteering and see how much I like it. Or possibly see if I can get part time, that would be a much easier transition for me. That's even thinking that I'd get the position although I seemed very qualified for it or so they said. My schooling has been going pretty well, enjoying that.
I also got a new bathing suit this weekend. SOOOO happy about that I needed one for a long time. I also had some fun girly pampering all weekend with a friend. I needed some girly time. I don't spend enough time pampering myself at all. Tried to go swimming during the week but the weather didn't co-operate. I'm hoping to swim sometime this week we'll see how that goes.
Other than that I've been enjoying my days and just having fun.
I miss lots of people, maybe I'll feel like going out dancing more often in the near future.
Love and hugs!
Dar Dar
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| Cuteness overload |
[30 Jul 2008|01:27pm] |
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The other day I came home from a late night and found that my dog had gotten into my stickers. I had a lot of that decorative confetti, in the shapes of black cats, little tombstones, and witches on brooms. I walk in the door and before I can get upset Riley wiggles towards me covered in the confetti. He had a witch stuck to his nose and a cat on his tongue. His whole body was covered in it. I haven't laughed so hard in a long time. Wish I had a camera.
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[28 Jul 2008|11:34am] |
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Waking up from beautiful dreams is never easy. Especially when reality is so different. Things are going well for me but it feels as though something important is missing. I feel it more every day. I wish I could just go back to my dream world today. There's just too much to do though. Maybe tonight the dreams will come back. Who knows.
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[24 Jul 2008|11:06pm] |
Stolen from everyone.
SCATTERGORIES: Copy the text below, erase my answers, then use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following. They have to be real places, names, things.. nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial.. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question.
WHAT IS YOUR NAME? Dragana
4 LETTER WORD: Dear
BOY NAME: Daniel
GIRL NAME:Delilah
OCCUPATION: Dog groomer
A COLOUR: Dapple grey
SOMETHING YOU WEAR: dress
BEVERAGE: daiquiri
FOOD: Danish
SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: dust
PLACE: Denmark
REASON FOR BEING LATE: Doin' stuff
SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: Dolt!
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| It's 5am and there's no end in sight |
[14 Jul 2008|04:56am] |
I don't think I'll ever be able to eat Swiss Chalet again. I don't know if it was from the food that I'm sick now, but either way the connection of the food to how sick I feel won't go away for a long time. I've been throwing up since 10 this evening. When ever I think it's slowing down it just starts again. I'm so tired and thirsty.
If I'm not better by later this morning I'm off to the doctor, I hope I can get a ride as I don't think I could handle any motion on a bus or subway...
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[26 Jun 2008|12:42am] |
- Post 3 things you've done in your lifetime that you don't think anybody else on your friends list has done.
- See if anybody else responds with "I've done that." If they have, you need to add another!(2.b., 2.c., etc...)
- Have your friends cut & paste this into their journal to see what unique things they've done in their life.
1. Sang at the Sky Dome
2. Flown a small plane (very briefly)
3. Raised a baby fawn
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| WOMEN'S ASS SIZE STUDY |
[24 Jun 2008|06:07pm] |
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There's a new study out about women and how they feel about their asses. Thought the results were pretty interesting:
- 85% of women think their ass is too big.
- 10% of women think their ass is too little.
- The other 5% say they don't care, they love him, he's a good man, and they would have married him anyway.
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[18 Jun 2008|04:23pm] |
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I'm furious! This building is driving me crazy. Since last week the water was turned off without notice. It came back on in the middle of the night then got turned off again the next day. It's been off and on this week again. Now I went to pick up my laundry from the laundry room and the damn thing is locked!! I want my clothes, I need them. All the super said to me was there was a flood. When I asked when I could get my clothes she ignored me walked away and started dialing on her cell phone as the elevator door closed. I'm furious about how they are treating people. The lack of notice when turning off the water, and locking up of facilities. I'd be able to ignore it if it was a rare occurrence but it's becoming common. I'm paying more rent then I can afford in this place. I don't know what my options are.. What can I do?
Has anyone else had to deal with this sort of thing? Any ideas?
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[13 Jun 2008|09:30pm] |
I was created for a different world than this. But I'm here and I'll do the best I can. It just never seems enough.
Inspiration is fading. I need renewal, and rain. Lots and lots of rain to clear it all away.
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[18 May 2008|10:17pm] |
If you are on my friends list, I want to know things about you. I don't care if we never talk, if you're more of a lurker, or if we already know everything about each other.
BE HONEST! Answer the questions in a comment, then repost on your own journal if you like.
Are you currently in a serious relationship?
What was your dream growing up?
What talent do you wish you had?
If I bought you a drink what would it be?
Favourite vegetable?
What was the last book you read?
What zodiac sign are you?
Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
Worst Habit?
If you saw me walking down the street, would you offer me a ride?
What is your favourite sport?
Do you have a pessimistic or optimistic attitude?
What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
Worst thing to ever happen to you?
Tell me one weird fact about you.
Do you have any pets?
What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
What was your first impression of me?
Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
What colour eyes do you have?
Ever been arrested?
White or red wine?
If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
What's your favourite place to hang at?
Do you believe in ghosts?
Favourite thing to do in your spare time?
Do you swear a lot?
Biggest pet peeve?
In one word, how would you describe yourself?
Do you believe/appreciate romance?
Do you believe in God?
Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
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[16 Apr 2008|08:00pm] |
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So tried to have a bath today when Riley sauntered in and noticed the rubber ducky on the far side of the bathtub ledge. He seemed hesitant at first then played with the water and hopped in to play with the duck. I couldn't help but laugh. I have the weirdest puppy in the world. We played with the rubber ducky in the tub for a while. Later, I opted for a shower. I think this summer he's gonna love the beach. The tub side lake wasn't much fun to clean up afterwards but I guess it was worth the laughs.
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| Nimo |
[01 Apr 2008|06:41pm] |
The place is so empty without him. Everything here reminds me of him. Riley keeps searching the corners. I haven't packed away his things. My poor boo had a tumor in his brain and had to be put down today. I've never been so heart broken. I don't know what to do with myself. Up until now I've been really happy in my new place. I love living on my own. My place is small but cozy and it was made warm and homey by two wonderful dogs. Riley is my solace. He seems to understand and lets me cry into his fur for as long as I need. We are both mourning our best friend. We'll be happy here again but it will take time for the pain to heal.
RIP Nimo, you were the craziest and best dog in the whole world.
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[17 Dec 2007|10:51am] |
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What an amazing weekend. Had a lot of fun. Sunday morning took the puppies to the big park. No one was out. They had so much fun. I did too although running in deep snow worked my legs out better than I have in a while. The dogs love snowballs even though when they land they can't find them, so they dig like mad. Very cute. Should have brought the camera.
Nothing more going on. Still looking for decently priced apts. If anyone has info please keep me posted.
Love
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[05 Dec 2007|04:17pm] |
There won't be snow in Africa this Christmas time,
The greatest gift they'll get this year is Feral. Do They Know It's Christmas
from the Christmas Song Generator. |
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[28 Nov 2007|03:19pm] |
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Which Muppet are You?
created with QuizFarm.com |
| You scored as Rowlf the Dog You are one easy-going dude! You are mellow and outgoing, and are great with little kids and animals. People love you!
Rowlf the Dog |
| 88% | Kermit the Frog |
| 75% | Fozzie Bear |
| 63% | Pepe |
| 50% | Rizzo the Rat |
| 50% | Janice |
| 38% | Robin the Frog |
| 38% | Sweetums |
| 38% | The Great Gonzo |
| 38% | Animal |
| 25% | Miss Piggy |
| 25% | Sam the Eagle |
| 25% | Statler and Waldorf |
| 13% | The Swedish Chef |
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[27 Nov 2007|07:34pm] |
Riley is all happy and relaxed, has no idea that coming thursday he will no longer be a man. Not that he's a man now.
Poor little guy. I know it's not dangerous and that it is necessary but I always feel bad leaving a dog at the vet overnight. They always think you're abandoning them >=
The next couple of weeks are super busy. Have a few appointments to look at apartments, doctor appointments, vet appointments. Winter clothes to buy. I really can't wait for the weekend again. It's only Tuesday.. blargh.
Most of it seems a lot of fun except for the fact that it's so cold out.
Anyway that's all I have for now.
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